Baby girl,
Soon I will see your beautiful eyes looking back at me. I will hold you in my arms and begin to understand who you are and dream of all you will become.
We have been waiting for you so long, your Daddy and me. Your big sister and your brothers can't wait to meet you. There are so many here longing to see you. So many who love you, even now, when they don't have a face or a name to match with that love. This love is an amazing kind of love, the kind of love that defies explanation. I know that it is powerful and fierce, a beautiful force. I know that it moves mountains because it is this love that is bringing you home.
I sit and dream about what it will be like:
When we get the call.
The first time I hear your name.
When I see your face for the first time.
What it will be like to get on an airplane to go meet you.
TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS.
To watch your Daddy kiss your sweet face.
To meet those who have cared for you.
To stand before the Ethiopian government and proclaim our commitment to love and care for you.
To have to board a plane without you and return to the U.S.
The weeks that we will wait for the call telling us we can return and bring you home.
Flying to Ethiopia again, knowing we will have you on the plane with us when we return home.
What will it feel like to board that airplane with our sweet Ethiopian baby...taking her from her homeland?
Buckling you into a carseat for the first time and traveling down the interstate to your new home.
Watching your big sister approach you with a mixture of excitement and apprehension.
Your oldest brother, gentle and loving, saying hello.
The sweet kisses and gentle touches from the youngest of the three.
The village of people longing to catch a glimpse of your sweet face...what a joy it will be to witness your meeting.
Sweet girl, may God hold you in the palm of his hand. Protect you. Provide for you. If there is no one to look into your precious eyes, hold your tiny hand or kiss your sweet face showing you love and the joy you bring to this world, may He send an angel to do it for me. Soon. Soon you will be in my arms and I will do everything I can to show you how precious and treasured you are.
Until then my beloved,
Mama
