In the last update it was mentioned that "updates can feel less engaging for families who have been waiting" awhile and that is how I have felt the last few months. When we get an update that a child has been matched I am, for lack of a better word to describe it, numb. I didn't intend to build a wall but apparently I have. To think we are likely to wait another year is just overwhelming some days. To spend another round of birthdays and holidays without her when I had silently ticked them off as the last without her...adoption and the process is just heart wrenching through and through.
For a bit of clarification: Kyle and I started the process of filling out paperwork in early 2011. Our home study approval was issued in August of 2011 and our approval from USCIS came in October of 2011. When the wait time estimations are given it is based on the USCIS approval date. Which means, for us, October will be two years waiting for a match. Granted, our hearts have been waiting nearly a year longer than that.
So. We continue to wait. We try to prepare but now it seems, as it is in the last weeks of pregnancy, there isn't much to do til she arrives. We found a book and CD to teach us some Amharic and there is a possibility of Skype lessons of Tigrinya. There is no way to know what language will be her first language but these are the two most likely. I have heard they are difficult languages to learn so we shall see how we do!
